Love Story for ever !!!!!

POSTED ON INFY BLOG: Tuesday, June 1st, 2010
once upon a time I had this so called crush on one girl.
she was very beautiful.
The main thing which attracted me most was
She was different from most of the other girls.
She never wanted to be noticed..She never was interested in silly talks...
She was interested in studies, flowers, birds and animals....
and She was very religious....
Seeing her could make my heart beat faster... I never understood why ...
It was some special pleasure I enjoyed.

I was this popular guy...
But, being popular also produced so many rumors.. and so many more which i don't even know.
But then...
I knew... there was only one more year... and after that I will be leaving the school
Revealing was necessary.. else she would never know
But i was afraid.. because at least.... right now i got HOPE...
but if she rejects.. then i will break.
I knew I can never find anyone else in her spot..
I wanted a life with her
I just wanted her....
so I thought...I will have to some how make her understand my love for her

I started writing a letter.

Hi sweetheart....
then I thought. "sweetheart" would not be appropriate...
because she may not feel good if she does not even care for me
and if she has some other affairs going on..

and so.. i wrote..

Hi

I don't know whether you know me.
But I know you.
I don't know whether you want to know me.
But I want to know you more.
I don't want you to love me.
But I want you to understand that.
I feel I love you a lot and I see dreams
I see you, me , our son and daughter going for
the alumni for school reunion after 15 years in the
black BMW wearing black suit.
I don't know whether I will be able to buy a BMW or the
black suit.
But I want you at least. Will you allow me to make you my life partner forever. will you ?

the next day
I was all set to give the letter to her.

I saw her coming.

I went near her.. I asked her I want to tell her some thing
she said. tell me.
I told her..." I am Jens."
She said " I know"
I asked " How ? "
She said "athokke undu"(Something is there[MALAYALAM])
I said " tell me.... is there something.. you know.. " I smiled
She said " Sonia is crazy about you "
I thought for a while
I said "I wanted to tell the same.. I got a letter for her. Could you give it to her. I know you are close buddies "

She smiled, took the letter from me and went.
I smiled again.

Definition of Love

How on earth can someone love more than one person in real life ????? The "love" I am speaking about is romance.
From the time I knew about this so called "love", I was sure that I will love only "her". Even if she would not love me, I will still be the same. I will fight for my love. I will die for my love. I will still remain a chronic bachelor even when she gets married or her child gets married.

Today:-

How on earth can someone get involved with only just one girl?? How can some one be so "lazy"?? When you have better chance, when you understand that the girl you think you love is not the one you really loved, or when you think that the girl you are loving just loves you like hell and never understands you, or when you at last understand that the girl wont allow you to live a peaceful life, then leave. Leave her :)
May be she is feeling the same about you. She also wants to leave you. And may be she is waiting for you take the first step so that no one will blame her :)

You always have a choice !!!!!

There is no right or wrong decision. Its just whether you are happy with your decision or not.
I don't take decision based on just calculations. Because there is no perfect machine which can tell you what can happen in future.
I had situations where my decision was so crucial. And my choices looked so alike and with same complexity.And when there is situation to take decisions, you will be surrounded with suggestions from your relatives, friends, relatives' friends, friends' relatives and the list goes on.

They will be there only while taking the decision and not when you have to suffer the whatever impact the decision caused.

When you have choices and you can never assess the impact of your decision in future, why waste time thinking. Just take a decision and be happy with it.

Never say that I am in this situation just because of my father or friend or brother or whatever.Don't say "He asked me to take that course in college; or he is the one who suggested the girl; he asked me to do that" etc..

Your destiny is in your hands along with the so called "God" and with no one else.
"Be happy for what you are and what you are not.Because your current situation is better than a situation worse than this :) "

What are you runnin for !!!!!

Its a sunny day.
Its a funny world.
Full of competitions.
Selfish deeds .
I feel lonely
I feel like crying.

But then I realize.
There is nothing to penalize.
Even I have changed.
I was once a sweet innocent boy.
I am running, cos every one run
I dunno why.. I dunno my destiny
I feel I’ l be left alone,
I feel I will be a loser if I dun run
I feel lonely
I feel like cryin

I got my parents
I got my friends
I got my brothers and sisters
I don’t see them, I dunno
I just know them, I dunno
I am running, cos every one run
I dunno why.. I dunno my destiny
I feel I l be left alone,
I feel I will be a loser if I dun run
I feel lonely
I feel like cryin

I wanted chocolates
I wanted toys
I wanted bicycle and bike
What I want now, I dunno
What I am lukin for, I dunno
I am running, cos every one run
I dunno why.. I dunno my destiny
I feel I l be left alone,
I feel I will be a loser if I dun run
I feel lonely
I feel like cryin

There was mental pain
There was physical
There was agony and misery
But what is it now, I dunno
It’s killin me like hell, I dunno
I am running, cos every one run
I dunno why.. I dunno my destiny
I feel I l be left alone,
I feel I will be a loser if I dun run
I feel lonely
I feel like cryin

I know what you think
I know what you have
You‘ve been in to this.
You are my reflection.
We are runnin
We are runnin like hell
But just wait and think
What are we runnin for..
What are we lookin for…
Are n’t we happy yet
Are n’t we satisfied
Why dun we take a breathe
And just live it to the depth.
Cos life is jus once
And death is jus once
Why dun we live it up
Than rather die it out !!!!!!

My Happy Ending !!!

1.Why cant you talk to me for atleast 30 mins a day ?
2.why are you more close to your friends than me ?
3.why cant you understand me ?
4.Do you really love me ?

My answers to her questions were:

1.I got busy work these days.I need to meet at least my
Boss' expectations.Its the beginning of my career.I get very less time for every thing other than work.(at least these days).Even when I reach home so late, I talk to you in phone. I want to talk more. I want to tell you many things. But then, I need to get up early. If I don't sleep at least for 3 or 4 hours, then that will affect me the next day in office.Please wait.Everything will be alright.

2. My friends were there with me every time. Even if you are more important, they are also important. I live with them. They support me. They need my support too. You will understand it. Please wait. Everything will be alright.

3. I really understand you if not fully. I know your tensions. I know your care and most importantly, I know you love me a lot. Please wait. Everything will be alright.

4.Why do you keep asking me that question.? You are the one I love the most in this world. It's for you, I live. Please wait. Everything will be alright.








She dint wait. :)


She had her own answers for those questions.

1. I don't love her anymore.
2. I don't love her anymore.
3. I don't love her anymore.
4. I don't love her anymore.




Now,

I sleep 30 minutes more everyday.
I am happy with my friends
I understand me and others.

I don't love her anymore. :):):)

THE WORST GAME EVER PLAYED !!!!!

Do you know why I like playing table tennis ?

Yes. There can be lot of reasons.
1. It is simple.
2. You need no much space to play.etc etc.

But one reason why I found it interesting is that the game starts with the phrase "LOVE ALL". Even if the player signifies "zero for both the teams" with that particular phrase, it always made me think about loving all :P "LOVE ALLLLLLLLLLL" "LOVE EVERY ONE".

Games are always good. But we like some games more than others. Or if i tell adversely, we dislike some games more than some others.

Today, I played the worst game ever. I don't know whether I can call it a game. The name is "TRUTH OR DARE ? " and the irony is I insisted my mates to play this. For those of you who does not know the rules of this game, I will explain.
SIMPLE...!!! People sit around a table. We will have a bottle.Make the bottle lie down on the table. Rotate it.When the bottle becomes stagnant, check to whom the bottle's cap is pointing. Now, any other person can ask that guy "TRUTH OR DARE ?" Most probably, he/she will say TRUTH.Or in most of the cases, they explicitly take it as TRUTH only.Then the person will be asked a question, which he/she has to answer faithfully.SIMPLE...!!!

The reasons why I hate this game is :-


1. While the bottle rotates, everyone prays so that the bottle does not point to them.

2. If it points and you are the person at "hot seat", then you need to wait for the question. And the question is surely going to be worse each time.

3. Finally,when the question is fired and its your job to answer, you got only one choice.

And that is...............



TO TELL ANYTHING OTHER THAN THE TRUTH...!!!!

Me and She !!!!!

It was our sports day.Now let me say proudly that I was the sports champion for 4 years in a row in our school.And that was from 9th to 12th. It was my last year in school and we had the custom of the "previous year champion lighting the lamp" as part of the inaugural ceremony.I had to run a 200 metre with a lamp first and then ignite the main big bowl kind of light which was placed near a big tree. I guess a banyan tree.

Wearing the track suit and the adidas shoes, I ran in an average speed of 10.5 km/hr. I ignited the lamp. Some teacher was announcing the events happening through a microphone. I could hear my name too in between. Its always good to hear our name through the speaker in a "big" crowd. That gives you more "visibility" in future if I use the corporate term.
I returned to the end of the line of boys from 12th standard being the tallest.My friend turned back and said
" Aliya superb".
"aliya" is a slang used among friends.
I asked: "What????"

He said: " She was looking at you all the time till you reach here. "

Now let me give you a brief introduction about this "she". she was my first crush. I always thought I could not live without her. Or rather I was damn sure, she will be my girl forever. On the process of explaining my love to her,I had to sacrifice or suffer lot of things. But it happens in every love story. Even once i had written in my mail to tie her hair in zig zag manner if she loved me. Thats some way of tying your hair in kerala. And the next day I saw her tied her hair so.I was amazed. Later on I could understand that she never check her mails. Even then I did not give up. But once when her brother called me and called me few names, I gave up. Not because my love was not sincere. But her brother was too healthy.

Now back to the sports day.

I said to my friend: " Macha... I had already given up. You know it na.? I dont think..she..ever... you know.. "

He(my friend) said: "Its not like that. She loves you. Thats why she was watching you all the time. Come one man. Respond to it , Respond to your heart"

I felt he is right. I had always felt he is right. I proceeded with my love for her. Later on by finishing the college, I had lot of "sincere" crushes. And right now when I recall that sports day incident, I could conclude it into 2 points.


My friend said to me that day :-
" da all the time she was looking at you" .

The first point is " everyone was looking at me. Because I was running with the lamp and that was a ceremony happening. And no point for anyone in looking anywhere else "

The second point is " He(my friend) was looking at her all the time.."

I smiled. What else can I do :)