I would not have...

I asked her," If I had given time to think, then..."
She said with out allowing me to complete,
"My answer would have been still a NO"
I smiled when walkin to my home cos I was
having her diary with me which said on 'November 3rd'
"If he had asked me again or just given me a hint, I would
have....,but he never came back. Why does not he understand a girl."

I understand now. Understanding is the mainpoint.
If life had a second chance, I would not have hesitated to ask the second time,
I would not have let her go, I would not have given away my friendship, I would not have been so rude to my sisters, I would not have been so disrespectful to my teachers, I would not have lied to my mom, I would not have.....